My Testimony

So...here I go starting a fabulous (at least I hope so) new blog! This will be my own personal journal/information on my personal journey as a biblical, Christian young woman in a modern society. I hope to post things to help support ladies seeking to be true women of God and my own personal account of my struggles and experiences.

I guess I should start, first and foremost, with my own little personal testimony. So here it is.....

Since I was a kiddo, I always prayed to God. I would just have "talks" with God and I would pray about everything. I can still remember praying oustide that I would get to spend the night at my friends house or that I would get something that I was wanting. I always thought that I had a relationship with God because I believed there was a God and I prayed to Him. Fastforward years later to when I was in high school. I went to church, went to youth group, talked to others about God and thought I was a good person. Yeah, I made mistakes but I asked for forgiveness and didn't do a lot of bad stuff...I must have been a Christian, right? So WRONG!!! Next we have the college years....I tried not to drink a lot and made some stupid choices at times but I stayed out of trouble and I tried to do what society says is "good" and "what you're supposed to do." I was in a sorority (which I do love Chi-O) and graduated and got married(met my hubby at church), became a teacher, bought a house with my husband, had babies, finished grad school and did everything I had planned and wanted to do in order. Perfect, right? While I am so blessed and thank the Lord every minute for it, it was not until last year that I was TRULY saved. I know that God used my husband as an instrument in me being saved. Joey, my hubby, had attended the Ambassador's Alliance in LA 2 years ago. He came back with a new heart and a new mind. God opened Joey's eyes to the truth.

Now, let me tell you this before I proceed and this is the scary part. All along since Joey and I had started dating...we thought we were Christians. We went to church everyday, prayed together, helped others, and thought we were good-law abiding citizens. Well, back to Joey's experience. When he came back it was extreme. I had a hard time understanding it all and I was actually fighting him on the some of the changes he wanted to make for our family. I kept thinking..."We ARE Christians, why is he acting like the way we are living is not okay?" Well, slowly God began to change my heart and mind.

The day that I realized I was a wretched sinner (I know that sounds harsh) is the day that I was truly saved...I know it sounds crazy but the day that I realized that I am nothing without God and his grace is the day my life changed.
I repented of my sin and began to trust in the Lord and I am so thankful that he chose to save me...
You see we have all fallen short of the glory of God....we are all sinners. As much as we don't want to admit it, we all have selfish motives in our hearts. We all want what we want more than what God wants. Now, I want God's will to be done and not my own. Do I still struggle? Everyday. Everyday I fight a battle....I want to live for God and I want to be a biblical wife and a gentle, loving mother....everything that God commands us women to be. Yet, I battle the temptation of getting caught up in the world and breaking God's law.....coveting for example. I will see an absolutely gorgeous pair of shoes or I will begin to want that Louis V sitting in the window and I just have to have it. Am I saying that wanting those things are bad? No. But putting my effort and time and thoughts in obtaining something rather than focusing on Christ is. He died for my sins and was the ultimate sacrifice. Our God is so amazing to save us from an eternity in hell. On top of that (how can you beat that?), he gave us all His word on how to live. He made it so clear but many are so lost.

I just pray that this blog will be a way to gain support from other Christian women and maybe will help other women who have the same struggles that I have. I hope you enjoy and I look forward to this blog!!


Love,

Melanie